in which we challenge the precept
that our thoughts have meaning
and that everything that happens
in the world
has some relation
to the things we thought about it;
the law of expectations,
in which there are three cases,
if we expect that an event will be
enjoyable, it will disappoint us;
if we expect that an event will be
boring, we will be pleasantly surprised;
if we believe that we have thought through
all possible permutations
then the universe will find a way
to surprise us.
in which we challenge the idea
that our thoughts have some bearing
on the world; the word of God,
the heavy books in our hands.
we believe it will be hard,
so it will be.
we believe it will be easy,
so it will be.
there must be some relationship–
find it!
scour the collection of
data amassed
from feverish memory
encodings, pencil
shavings, yellow-green
hoodies, when we
get home, we will
expect to see the same
ice cream in the
freezer.
in which we strip the raft
of its roping, spring a
leak in the buoy, and
float out to sea.
little surprise it is, then,
how unmoored we feel
when life appears to
pass us by. when events
come and go without
a heavy dosage of
meaning. when we do not
look back at the house
and think to ourselves,
“this will be the last time
I see the house from
this angle, and it will
be locked in my memory
in this form forever, and
it is going to mean
something,
it is going to contain my
past, my solemnity,
my sorrow at how
it went, how I will
not get it back, etched
in mossy blue-green.”
in which we consider
that our thoughts
may not mean
anything.
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