I do not like my face.
I punish it regularly.
nails picking at my cranium,
trichotillomania;
when I look at yours I fall back within
the spiral of scared and obliged.
I should like it.
I should feel something.
I should be like someone else – effusive, beating
heart, it bears repeating that
I do not like my face. there is some irony here.
don’t let it go to waste. don’t pick up the phone.
don’t let it settle. stay on the case.
okay, let’s agree that I feel it should not be me;
rather, more, that I should not be. that my Self
should be disposed of, done away with,
pushed out, excavated, formed a crater
in my brain matter just like a follicle ruptured
under tectonic pressures a foregone
conclusion that it should be done, automatic,
systematized, basic commands, force quit
internal override.
a beautiful mix, golden coat sheen cross
betwixt a shephard and lab teeth pristine.
paws the gravel road from my place to yours,
your place to mine,
intake of breath,
it’s dark outside.
you need such assurance.
it’s a desperate plea.
it’s now so bold, underlined, undergone,
undertaking underwent, walton and the
golden boy mason unblend.
or such is my task, long as the day grows old
and the bushes clog with hoarfrost.
if they are not given love and care, they will
continue to keep you. they will panic.
they will think themselves – you – wrong over every little
thing. you will withdraw so as not to burden another
with their needs. perhaps unhelpful verbage,
perhaps just inaccurate. for they are nobody else’s
responsibility, and they do not take well to beseeching from others.
they are yours.
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